okay, i do not have time to BREATH right now. Its effing rediculous! I am in the first production of the year at my school
9it is called THE ELEPHANT MAN) and im a semi-lead in the production (i have lines, and a very significant scene)

on top of all that excitement -for gods sake, i got it out of 8 upperclassmen girls that are REALLY REALLY good- its my first production ever. I mean my FIRST. Like, im a virgin actor (okay that came out wrong... ) which is virtually unheard of in the theater department. And we open on THURSDAY. And i mean THIS thursday. so i had a rehersal until 10;30 last night, which was all light cues....soooo boring. and i went in for 4 hours today to learn how to do old-person stage makeup...... and next week is going to be the worst yet. I can just feel it in my bones.

plus, the stage has multiple levels, and in my scene i see the elephant man (a grossly disfigured -but still brilliant and kind hearted-man that the play is about) and run in terror down a flight of stairs.

let me give you a little math equation...
Chloe + stairs + running / high heels = mortification in front of a whole theater of people
........people are putting bets on how bad i beef it.
(eff you kevin)

but in light of all that, I love theater dearly and i am a lot closer to my cast, and i truly am starting to feel loved and part of the department. Even though i feel so fatigued and sick of rehersal until its dark out, i want to keep doing it for a long time.

I quote [link] , "i think im starting to become some kind of strange masochist"